First day of school. I have a sinus infection so it has been really hard to sleep lately. I woke up aroun5 and sat in bed listening to my ipod till 7:30. I then got up and ready for school I had no voice today because my throat was so congested. I sounded like a man all day lol.
First class was stats which was okay. i can tell it is going to be struggle but I found Jared and his gf in that class so it should be okay. Plus I know a lot of math geeks at this school that will help me. :)
Antropology was good too. Amanda is in my class. There are some real weirdos in that class though, not gonna lie. But it was nice. Crandall is funny and British so he is nice to listen too. Also the class sounds interesting and there are no tests! YAY. Just writing DOUBLE YAY!
Like I said before, today was really sporatic. After I got done with my classes I headed over to the employment office to turn in my work forms so that I could be officially hired at the MTC. I initially thought that I would go turn in my papers super fast and then go to my doctors appointment and then go home and sleep till dinner....
As Chuck Testa would say...
When I got into the employment office it was P-A-C-K-E-D! The line was incredibly long. At first I was like "Dang it--this really sucks." But as I stood in line people around me who were also waiting in line started to make use of their time and get to know the people they were standing in line with. I talked to this Colombian girl and we talked about how my dad served his mission there and how cool the country is. I talked to this huge 7 foot tall guy on the volleyball team and he gave me really good insight on Food Science. I also got to catch up with some people I knew previously like Kiley, JC, and Sam. It was an extremely long wait, but I felt somehow--happy. And content. Everyone around us was making friends with complete strangers and it was a good feeling. All of the impatience and selfishness I felt before just erased from my mind briefly.
I had to leave before I got to actually turn in my papers because I wanted to make it to my doctor's appointment on time. Again, I was stressed about my schedule not going acording to plan. I speed walked to the Student Health Center. Once there I had to do some more waiting. I sat in the waiting room for about 30 minutes. Instead of impatiently staring at the wall during that time, I found a copy of the newest Ensign from general conference and a copy of the Book of Mormon. I picked up both and began to read. The words of the prophets were just what I needed to cure my impatience at the moment. Time passed by so quickly and I was completely absorbed in the spirit. Once again feeling content.
Afterwards I went back to the employment center and stood in line yet again. Unfirtunatley when I got to the front I was faced with another problem...I couldnt turn in my papers because I needed a social security card. GEE DANG IT. Feeling again, defeated...I said a quick prayer. I just wanted to get my papers in. And now I had to walk a mile from my dorm in the 10 degree weather just to wait in more lines? and not just any line....government building lines which are the absolute WORST. I walked out of the building when suddenly I saw my home teacher! I asked him for a ride and he was completely willing to help me out! It was awesome! Thank you Brandon! He took me down there. The place was sketchy and the line was long...He needed to get to class but he made sure that I had a ride back so he called Chase, another boy from our ward, to come and pick me up when I was done. SO AWESOME. I have never even spoken with Chase before and yet he was totally willing to pick me up. And not only that, but he was extremely sweet and talkative to me on the way back to BYU.
As I waited in the line at the SSN Office, I noticed a big contrast between the lines at BYU and this office. Many people were complaining over and over and over again. They were blatenly rude to the workers and each other and those waiting in line. The room screamed IMPATIENT. But I sat there for the whole 2 hours in complete contentness. I was nice to everyone around me and completely patient. By having this attitude I was able to find light in the situation. I made a few people smile, a woman was thankful to me for letting her borrow my pen, I tried my best to be kind and content with the situation despite the state I was in.
Anyways, what I am really trying to say is that I am thankful that we have the agency to control our attitude despite the uncontrollable situation. Heavenly Father blessed us with this gift of agency when he implenmented the fall of Adam in the plan of salvation. There is this really great book that I read last year called Man's Search For Meaning by holocost survivor Viktor Frankl
Between 1942 and 1945, Viktor Frankl spent time in four different Nazi concentration camps. The experience was every bit as miserable as you’d imagine and then some. His family died, he suffered horribly, and he spent years watching everyone around him suffering and dying. Out of this, Frankl searched for meaning. Throughout his experience he suffers and sees so many around him suffer, yet he learns that even throughout this terrible trial, he was able to be happy by changing his attitude. Here are some great quotes from the book.
“Everything can be taken from a man but one thing: the last of the human freedoms—to choose one’s attitude in any given set of circumstances, to choose one’s own way.”
“When we are no longer able to change a situation, we are challenged to change ourselves.”
“The one thing you can’t take away from me is the way I choose to respond to what you do to me. The last of one’s freedoms is to choose one’s attitude in any given circumstance.”
“But there was no need to be ashamed of tears, for tears bore witness that a man had the greatest of courage, the courage to suffer.”
I testify that we can control our attitude and see things for the better through the gospel.
After all of that I went back to the dorm and took my antibiotics and stuff. It seems to be helping because I can breath out of my nose finally. We had dinner at the Cannon which was great because we sat with kids from our ward and it was all good. Then we had FHE and got to introduce ourselves to the new people and we just chilled. Next week for FHE we are going to Skype Nathan and play Mafia! YAY! I love my FHE Family.
Group #1! Spencer, Nathan, Noah, Adam, Sam, Jacob, Me, Collette, Michelle.
Not pictured: Laura, Megan, and Megan (aka people who never show up)
No matter how dysfunctional of a family we are...
Okay I am going to pass out if I do not go to sleep soon, NIGHT
Love
Kenna
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